on the phone for well over an hour. house stuff…this and that and the ones who still have to pick up their purchases. i was expecting it to be a planned short call (i really dont do phone calls…i’m a guest at somebody else’s house AND it was confirmed that my voice sounds …meh…by someone who supposedly liked me maybe)
it was supposed to be quick. but then Abby got to her point. was she just trying to make 2 sales out of 1? it is, afterall her job to do that…that’s where she makes her money. it mattered very lil to her whether i stayed or left the one house personally. putting up gave her another opportunity (though i think it’s a rougher market now). she said the market isnt so bad and proceded to mail me links. she found a few spots that [she said] “made me think of you.
all builder’s lots and none under $200,000.
“The builder has pre-established plans, but its not like there isnt wiggle room. You’d have the upper-hand in the negotiation. They’re all away from Park in nice residential areas with nice school districts. You can have it built as a ranch to accomodate your needs”
i am not a fan of ranches. i know i told someone this… so few people know me.
“Well then a first floor bedroom…and aside from the location, the price is perfect. The taxes are more affordable than here. This place was far more house than you and Lilly really needed. There is the Homeorama location…”
let’s pretend i have a clue what that is
“Its in Victor, on lovely rolling hills around the corner from Valentown and the mall . Two locations in Penfield that would be ideal. One in Canandaigua and one in Pittsford. I’ll send you the link.”
http://www.newhomesource.com/communityresults/market-215
“Remember the key is that with these new developments you could have the house customized from the very start. Everything you liked about this place you could copy and everything you disliked you could change. It’s a wonderful opportunity!”
ok…i got caught in her enthusiasm. someone sounding excited when talking to ME, really? i got caught in the trap of another future-looking person who made me temporarily forget that i have things and stuff in the NOW that still need to be dealt with. darn those future-pointers and dream makers…they always make it sound so possible…so easy to accomplish, when it’s not…i’ve got this messy moat to get over and there isnt any bridge.
and really…what was the point of this conversation anyhow… was she really interested in my well-being or MORE interested in landing that valuable coming and going commission from me?
still i agreed to allow Bryan to look into the properties.
stupid.
i’m not wanted up there. the sale is wanted. my money is wanted…but i’m not. i made that choice over a month ago when i fled. the drs. down here wont even clear me to go (though Abby says that’s not a problem, that all the paperwork could be done via fax, email, etc. and anyhow by letting her, Scott and Bryan handle the small issues…it’s a builder’s lot and would take some time for a house to be placed and liveable)
she was just trying to make a sale. this has nothing to do with me…just the $$$
every person comes at a price.
she’s not a witch or villain, but still…nothing is for free and that whole conversation had absolutely nothing to do with anyone showing signs of wanting me around.
everyone has an ulterior motive…the real reason… the real reason my mom was nice, the real reason Dave let me sleep on his couch, the real reason A**** came back, the real reason i was sent to Virginia, the real reason Abby “found the ideal house”
when will i stop being so blastedly hopeful and gullible…that stupid never-ending wish …stupid
Lilly and i dont need 4 bedrooms near a golf course. Lilly and i dont need a formal dining room or a stone patio (especially not the stone patio…no stone fascades, no stone fireplaces, no stone walks…that would crush me every morning when i looked out upon it!)
when will i stop being like this??? when will it stop hurting??? i need to lay down again
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